havent updated in so long... almost a WEEK!hahah
well.. been home since last wed.. and been cleaning up my whole room since then..
ended off my exams with a bang ;) my jury went pretty well... most of u guys kno how i was scared/worried/unsure about it.. i was really.. not confident.. cuz i played REALLY badly @ our saturday recital thing... and i didn't really have much time to practice either,cuz i had 2 exams the day b4 my jury.... it all looked so brutal, but when the day came, it wasn't too bad.. :P hehe.. so @night, i played for a few friends... and i kept on screwing up ahahah.. like reaLLY. this is the night before my jury. and i cant even play thru my songs? blah.. but one of my friends said she knew that i could do it; i jus need to have some confidence in myself.... thanks so much 4 that..i really needed to hear it.. :) so i practiced til like 1:30ish am n slept relatively early.. haha. got up at like 9 something, and i intended on warming up/practicing a bit more b4 my jury @11:20.. but.. haha ended up taking all my pics down from my walls since i was moving later in the afternoon.. so i only warmed up for like 15 mins or so haha.. i was early for my jury, so i had to wait.. n listen to the person b4 me play for a good 5 mins.. n let me tell u. it was nerve-wrecking!... so i prayed n prayed .. repeating isaiah 41:13 to myself... and i became less scared.. less nervous. walked into the room.. saw that it was anya, leslie de'ath n my teacher.. which calmed me down some more, since leslie's my masterclass teacher, n anya looks really kind. HAHA ;p. neway. i don't really rmb what went on in my mind for the next 20 mins or so while i played..but i can honestly say that it was absolutely becuz of God's grace that i was able to get thru it.. usually, when i play in class or whatever, and i mess up, i get soooo nervous that i cant rmb how to go on.. yahh its pretty bad. but when i messed up during my jury, i wasn't even the slightest bit scared, and i jus played from wherever i rmb. it was... wow. totally amazing. and also.. leslie cut me off after half of the 1st mvt of the beethoven sonata, and i didnt even haftu play the other 2 mvts at ALL!!!! i was so shocked. haha.. but SO happy i didn't haftu. so yah... it was definitely God's work... and that was the end of my 1st yr in uni.
i had like no time to reflect on the past yr becuz i had to pack up/move out right after my jury was done.. :( i would've stayed for at least another day if i could (n pARTAYY ahaha), but i had an eye appt the next morning.. so poo ;p. but yah. it doesn't feel like its summer yet..... becuz i still feel like i'm in school or something. and this is an extra exTRA long weekend lol ;p.. not used to the whole.. 4 months of summer yet. been lookin for jobs... still am..... and cleaning everything up in my room...... like EVERYTHING.. came upon lots of ... letters/cards.. stuff like that... from childhood days..and realized how much i've grown up/matured. (HA HA HA)..and .. there's a part of me that still longs for days gone before...SC '98 for example ;p.. mayb not so much the events.. but the bonds between friends..many of which have faded...

i've lived for almost 2 decades now.. that's baffling...

what will this summer bring...?hopefully a decent job somewhere.. vacation/wedding in hawaii.. and ayp reunion!?!?!?!!!miss u all so much.....

long enuf post.....!GO LEAFS GO!!!;D

For I am the Lord, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.

Isaiah 41:13
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thx buddy.

for the ladies.. :)

By the time the Lord made woman, he was into his sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?"

And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart-and she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish."

"But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord."

"She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.

The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."

"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!"

"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride."

The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!

Women have strengths that amaze men.

They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.

Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

However, if there is one flaw in women, it is that they forget their worth.

the madness all begins tomorrow.
psych @2pm
theory @6:30pm
Wednesday:
piano jury @11:20am

being sick doesn't help at all.
haven't even loOKed at theory yet....and i haftu practice today too.
i jus wanna sleep...

i miss my baby cousin...

wow...... fun times...
yesterday..hung out with my bestest for most of the day... haha.. equilibrium @jimmy/steve's.. OMGG.. "W O W" and "C oo L" ........... words of the DAY!!!hahahahha oh man..... way too funny. we don't need alcohol/drugs, right?? ;) EGG TARTS @4am OMGGGGG i kno how to make them now!muhahahahah :D n then we stayed up and heard the birds singing til 5:30. ahhaha..
it's been a great 2 days with my best buddy :) hehe seriously u could totally fit in here.... man!if only..

tonite's hockey was soooooo much fun. i haven't played since............. i dont kno hoW long !hahahhahah oh man. yessss that's right everyone... i played hockey tonight hahah! contrary to popular belief...i can hold a hockey stick anD play! haha ;p it was sooooooo much fun. worked up a good sweat.. n i got 2 goals in too :D hehehe

lovelyyy.. i only studied for an hr today :( tmr has GOT to b hardcore.. LEAFS' GAME TMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!woohoooo

the best friend came yesterday...
and has taken overrrrrrrrrrr hahahaaaaaaaaaaaa

BIG COOKIE!!
it's a(n) HONour ...

BLAHBLAHBLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

goRGEOUS DAY OUT!!!!!!!!!!:D
leafs game tonight
studyin hardcore ..

leaving my best friend unattended in my room = havoc!!!!!

LA LA LAAAAAAAAAAAAA

@!#($&*!^@(*$&!^@(*$&!^@(&^!@(*$&@!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHh
u piss me off sooooooooooooooooo much.
honestly!!!!!!!

and you don't give a damn.

i think.. God wanted me to learn my own lesson through this whole thing.. which was why we didn't really get a chance to talk about it ;p... but yah... honestly it's been..... a lot of self control. a lot. which is esp hard for me.. cuz i'm an emotional person, so it's so easy to just let those emotions go wild, and let them take reign over my thoughts and actions.. which they did.

it was not pretty.

i let my feelings/emotions get the best of me and did things that i wouldn't have normally done if i wasn't so overridden with irrational feelings..i was blinded..
but through it all, i've learned a lot about relationships and friendships... and how God wants me to go about each.. when you can equate romance with wisdom, that's when you know you're ready for courtship (goal=eventually get married to that person)..

i still have much to learn.... but
my God is so awesome.

all i gotta say is... i had an awesome time tonight..awesome in the way that.... i really thought about the past yr ..and jus plain reminicising......
and most memorable moment this yr...?? that's a good one..... i'm still thinkin bout it..
there were jus so many... i don't know what's my most memorable one....... all those random 2am baking things... what's up with that hahaha.

newho.. more about this later..... too tired. why am i still up at this hr?!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

... vicki, i totally understand how u felt now.

something that struck me as interesting from yesterday's sermon... "Dead people don't feel pain; living people do." as in... only the people who are truly living feel pain, because... why do we feel pain neway? it's only when we love genuinely and deeply, that we become vulnerable enough to be hurt... have yOU felt ne pain lately?? :P

time to go study @the library for a WHOLE DAY........... yay. soc exam tmr @9am

on a muCH HAPPIER NOTE... my partner-in-crime is coming to visit on thursday!!!!!!!!!!WAHOOOOOOO :D hehehe can't wait... even tho i got a crAPLOAD of studying to do......blah. but YAYYY :D

can't believe i slept for half a DAY..
dunno why.. even tho my sister had practiced piano in the morning..and my mom had been cooking lunch n all that.. home is a sanctuary from bricker/school n all the other things that it encompasses..
didn't realize how much i miss being home, despite the (manY) restrictions + chores that my mom makes me do haha.. but jus miss how my mom n i talk to each other.. she's so funny.. and the never-ending 'fights' with my sister over clothes..and talking in the car with my dad.. and of course.. how my youngest sister has grown taller and the way she rushes to the aid of others when they need it.. its hard to explain.. but i miss all those things when i'm in loo.. i mean, sure i'm bak here every other weekend, but weekends are always too short to really live at home ..i don't know.. less than 2 weeks left @loo, and then i'll b bak here for 4 months. ready for it?i dont know. it'll b good to have the car again.. but i have sisters to drive around. ahhaha. and gettin used to curfews?!!ahhhhhhhh...

i'm gona miss bricker... it's been so nice.. hahaha.. and one of my goals has been achieved.. sharon dEFINITELY doesn't sleep b4 12am nemore!!!!!muahahha.. so funny how that slowly changed thru the yr... ;) heheh

it's a beautiful day out.. time to enjoy it!!:)

How beautiful the hands that served the wine and the bread and the sons of the earth.
How beautiful the feet that walked the long dusty road and the hill to the cross.
How beautiful is the body of Christ.

How beautiful the heart that bled, that took all my sin and bore it instead.
How beautiful the tender eyes that chose to forgive and never despise.
How beautiful is the body of Christ. And as He laid down His life we offer this sacrifice, that we will live just as He died, willing to pay the price.

How beautiful the radiant bride who waits for her Groom with His light in her eyes.
How beautiful when humble hearts give the fruit of pure lives, so that others may live!
How beautiful the feet that bring the sound of good news and the love of the King!

jus came bak from spending quality time with VICKI!!!HEHEEH :D haven't talked to her in sooo long..so much for "studying" huh...hehe.. wish u came to laurier hun..!!and darn it. why is our campus so small?!its poo. haha. but its alright i guess..whatever haha

hmm been wondering.. what's the point of getting into a relationship neway?what makes it worth risking a friendship for?what's the difference between a relationship n a friendship besides the hand-holding, feeling super special, etc? i dun see it.. haha good thing, yes? :P

i jus realized that... 5 days @home = 3405980698039852 lbs. gained. good food everywhere.. only in TO...how can i resist?!! never realized how great the food is here until i got to waterloo......... hahaha.. oh golden court, how i've missed you.. esp ur JEE MAIE LO!!!!!!!!!!!!!*drool...

get to see Jonathan again tmr hehehehehehe :P

wow..
doesn't seem like he's part of the family yet. haha mayb cuz he's still in the hospital.. went to see him as soon as i could.. n he's sooo wrinkly!his arm is like... dried up skin. or something. hahaha eww ;p but no.. SO TINY!!!he was sleeping when i got there so didn't get to hold him or nething.. ooohhh.. but yah.. this boy is gona b spoiled!!he's the baby of the family now hehehe :P

life is bittersweet... one good thing happens, and another bad thing happens at the same time.

homeee til sunday.. wee..

screwed up disgustingly on skills exam today. blahhhhhhh. whatever its done.
after that, studied for 2 hrs @the library..
n now lunchtime!
then packing..
and then leaving for HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE @5:30ish.. :D YAY!!!!!!

was SOOOoo productive today hehehehe :D
woke up @11.. practiced for skills final tmr.. n then practiced piano for 2 hrs.. then library for 2 hrs to study for soc.. and then practiced some more skills.. n another half hr of piano. PHEWWWWWW. its been crazy!so proud of myself hahahahahaha.. haven't done this much work in a while. feels great.. :) hehe.. didn't waste much time...

I HAVE A NEW BABY COUSIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D his name is Jonathan.. so exciting!!hehe can't wait to see him tmr when i go home!!!!!!!!!!!weeeeeeeee

it's been a good one. MUST SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT so i can b wide awake for my final tmr.. n then HOME @5:30!!!:D YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYy

i'm on a high.. can u tell??! :D :D :D

haven't posted in a while it seems...
women's cell was good tonight.... stuff bout self-control..some of the things brought up... i could jus totallllly identify with haha. like putting myself in places where i'm tempted n stuff... errr. yah. i tend to do that... sigh.
spent a lot of quality time with amy today haha .. jus talkin n stuff.. :) n if it wasn't for her.. i wouldn't have practiced AGAIN @night lol.. yayy :)
mmmmmmm my mom called.. and my aunt's getting a .. what do u call it....... cesarian.. tmr er.. later on today. this afternoon.. pls pray for her.. OH MY!!!!!a baby cousin!!!!!!!!!:) can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i'll get to see him/her on wednesday when i go home.. how exciting!!!!!!!!:D :D :D
today's gona b a busy one it seems..
so time for bed..
n what is with these late night things recently lol.. yesterday was movie with clint; tonight was josh n ricky bringing over good stuff. HAHA. it's all good..

and can't wait... til cottage!!!!!!!!!!!!:D yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bonding time with my church buddies :)

lovely..
i jus like that word.

from max lucado--When God Whispers Your Name.. heard @women's cell tonight...

I choose love...
No occasion justifies hatred;
no injustice warrants bitterness. I choose love.
Today I will love God and what God loves.

I choose joy...
I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance.
I will refuse the temptation to be cynical...
the tool of the lazy thinker. I will refuse to see
people as anything less than human beings,
created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as
anything less than an opportunity to see God.

I choose peace...
I will live forgiven. I will forgive so that I may live.

I choose patience...
I will overlook the inconveniences of the world.
Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I'll
invite him to do so. Rather than complain that the
wait is too long, I will thank God for a moment
to pray. Instead of clinching my fist at new
assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.

I choose kindness...
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone.
Kind to the rich, for they are afraid. And kind to
the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.

I choose goodness...
I will go without a dollar
before I take a dishonest one. I will be overlooked
before I will boast. I will confess before I will
accuse. I choose goodness.

I choose faithfulness...
Today I will keep my promises.
My debtors will not regret their trust. My associates
will not question my word. My wife will not
question my love. And my children will never fear
that their father will not come home.

I choose gentleness...
Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle.
If I raise my voice may it be only in praise.
If I clench my fist, may it be only in prayer.
If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.

I choose self-control...
I am a spiritual being....
After this body is dead, my spirit will soar.
I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal.
I choose self-control. I will be drunk only by joy.
I will be impassioned only by my faith.
I will be influenced only by God.
I will be taught only by Christ.
I choose self-control.

Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness,
faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.
To these I commit my day.
If I succeed, I will give thanks.
If I fail, I will seek his grace.
And then, when this day is done,
I will place my head on my pillow
and rest.

"I am the Lord you God,
who teaches you what is best for you,
who directs you in the way you should go..."
-Isaiah 48:17

tmr (or should i say..today) may be an exciting day... ha ha ha!!!:P

rub it in a lil more won't you?

i miss my best friend :( how are you doing??????


...to love like God does.. is the hardest thing to do in the world .

feelin this song..

it's so shallow and all so appealing
I'm up to my ankles and I'm drowning anyway
in a sea of sarcastic faces
familiar places
everything looks quite the same here
it's all confusingly amusing
bitter and tainted the picture you painted to me

I guess you're the only one
that nobody changes...

just 'cause it's all in your head
doesn't mean it has to be in mine...
I've tried to find myself in approval
I've already been there already done that
it got me nowhere it brought me nothing
but a good place to hide in

I guess you're the only one
that nobody changes

Only One--Lifehouse

all i want is some respect. is that too much to ask??

thanks..


so my first year of university has ended (the classes, at least..) ..and everyone says this, but it went by sooo fast. can hardly believe it... learned a lot.... i don't know.. met a lot of different people with different backgrounds.. it's been interesting..my faith has been challenged..friendships have been challenged.. i don't know.. something i'm aiming to do is to take on more challenges .. cuz i'm definitely not one to jump headfirst into a challenge.. and to just let myself haf fun HAHA cuz in first term, i didn't really, and it was all bout the work most of the time.. lol.

its been quite a ride. it was definitely not what i had expected..good and bad. God has been so good..He went way beyond my own expectations and blessed me with wonderful friends here in loo, especially from LCCF..like i've said many times before.. i duno how i would've survived my 1st year w/o u guys. can't live w/o close brothers + sisters hehee :) thanks .. u guys kno who u are.
and of course..my dear wendy and mike. kinda funny how i was closer to mike in 1st term, but instead, i'm closer to wendy this term. ahh.. "annoying friend"..no matter what u do, i'll always love you even tho i may not act like it...ha ha!!;p and my clubbing partner..its been so much fun chilling with u this term..random things @2am.. n being there for me.. :) gt's.. it won't b the same next yr..

can't wait til summertime!!!!!we BETTER B GOIN TO THE COTTAGE BUDDY. i dun care if we haftu squish 6 ppl in my highlander!!haha;p

....and so it begins... the month of finals.