break me down and take it all away to make me understand...
You're the One i've been searching for all this time.

awesome song..
Anything/The Calling

I will be there
Always waiting
Waiting for you
To let me inside
Where your fire burns
In a city of angels
Just like a river rushing straight into the sea
I'm the one thing meant for you and you for me

Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever it takes, I'll do anything

And as you sleep
Eyes to the window
I'm watching you dream
Well are you dreaming of me?
So why can't you see
You're all that matters
You know if this earth should crack
I'll be your solid ground
I will be there to catch you when you fall down

If I have to crawl
Get down on my knees
Whatever it takes, I'll go anything

I'd take the stars right out of the sky for you
I'd end the world give you the sun, the moon
For all of time, forever loving you

maybe i'm "fatigued from loving".....tired of it. everything
who am i kidding?

im really bored..

TEN random things about me:
10. i like watching chinese shows/movies
9. i was a major bookworm when i was a kid
8. i have a really sweet tooth
7. lovE colours
6. hopeless romantic
5. i don't like wearing white/black/gray socks.
4. easily angered by stupid drivers.
3. i dun wana turn 20 next yr!!>.<
2. "cute" describes many things
1. usually not opinionated.. haha

NINE places I've visited (starting with most exotic):
9. hawaii
8. paris
7. london
6. switzerland
5. italy
4. austria
3. china
2. hong kong
1. vancouver

EIGHT things I want to do before I die:
8. go bungee jumping
7. learn how to surf
6. learn how to play some mean guitar
5. go on STM
4. work @clothing store
3. get married n have 2 kids
2. go skiing/snowboarding in whistler
1. shoot a real gun

SEVEN ways to win my heart:
7. make me laugh
6. thoughtfulness in the small things
5. treat everyone equally well
4. good dresser
3. confidence
2. ability to read my mind ha ha.
1. love me for who i am

SIX things I believe in:
6. God
5. Jesus
4. heaven/hell
3. justice
2. miracles
1. love

FIVE things I'm afraid of:
5. not gettin into music therapy
4. losing family/friends suddenly w/o saying goodbye
3. changes/challenges
2. unknown future
1. icky things

FOUR of my favorite items in my bedroom:
4. pictures
3. pretty dresses/skirts
2. encouragement notes/letters
1. artistic creations from my PIC

THREE things I do everyday:
3. msn/internet
2. listen to music
1. talk to my mommy

TWO things I am trying not to do right now:
2. think too much
1. keep watchin tv..

ONE person I want to see right now:
you.

When I am overwhelmed
Holding pieces of my heart
When I feel my world
Start to fall apart

To the cross I run
Holding high my chains undone
Now I am finally free
Free to be what I've become
Undone

wanna go back here.. get awayy..

my Lord came down from His holy throne on high, where He was worshipped and adored by the countless angels.. to love us... born into the humblest place -- not into a comfortable,wealthy environment which He could've lived in.. instead He chose to live the simple life of a carpenter..in a world that was everything opposite to His being.its the mystery of the universe. He's experienced ..and felt .. everything that we have in our own lives.
amazing love..thank You*



*sigh. i'm such a fool...everytime.

feels soOOOOooooo good to be finally DONEEEE
wow.
took forever to get here.
but FINALLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY finished.
ahhhhh.....:)

let the holidays begin!:D

in this time of procrastination...i'd jus like to say that...
I DUN WANA STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
..despite the fact that my exam is tmr.. i'm still not motivated to study for it..which is pretty bad,considering its the hardest one, and i haven't looked at NETHING yet.the only thing i've done with my books is take them out of my bag @home.. and put them bak into my bag to go bak to loo.. - . - sigh.

no time no time........the holidays are gonna b over b4 i even know it.!>.<

all i gotta say is... 3 hrs well spent...... NOT studying. and i have no more "face" after tonight. why do u guys haftu LEAVEEEEEEEEE??? :(

appaRENTLY, it does matter. not sure why/how... but it does.
a few things i 'learned' during the hr and a bit i was stuck on the 401 on my way bak to loo...
God's timing is perfect.
no way.
listen when He talks!
God is crazy. (in a gOOD way)

2 songs i heard during that time..
Look What You've Done/Jet

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Somewhere Only We Know/Keane

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

now i know.... but so what?? doesn't matter neway..
SUM TAM la. (heart is feeling BLAND)
blah.

sometimes im so sure..but in the fleeting moments... i don't know.

awesome..thx alex :P

the otHER half....

When I say ... I am a Christian. I`m not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are too visible but God believes I`m worth it.
When I say... I am a Christian. I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches which is why I seek HIS name.
When I say ... I am a Christian. I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority; I only know I`m loved.
-Carol Wimmer. Copyright 1988

longing for this..

What Am I To You/Norah Jones

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Fast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never wanna part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

even after all this time.....

the 3's of this weekend..
3 malls in 2 days (STC,markville,fairview)
drove in all 3 precipitation types (rain,freezing rain,snow)

I HATE DRIVING IN THE WINTER!!!!!!!!!!!

drivin bak to loo...there were times when i could only see the car in front of me,and massive snowflakes hurling towards me.. it was SO scary.and there was snow between the lanes,so whenver i had to change lanes had to do it SOO carefully n slowly or else i'd like skid... mAN. it was soo freaky.never wana do that again...!>.< honestly i was scared for my liFE.
one good thing..i heard this song on the radio..

Collide/Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide

When I say I`m a Christian,I`m not shoutin "I am saved"
I`m whisperin "I get lost" That`s why I chose this way
When I say I`m a Christian, I don`t speak of this with pride
I`m confessin that I stumble and need someone to be my guide
When I say I`m a Christian, I`m not tryin to be strong
I`m professin that I am weak and pray for strength to carry on
When I say I`m a Christian, I`m not braggin of success
I`m admittin I have failed and cannot ever pay the debt.

transition

Life is full of transitions: a church moving to a new building or searching for a new pastor, a family moving to a new town or preparing for a new arrival, a graduation, a marriage, or a new job. It's easy to become complacent during the transition. We lose our concentration as we make our way through the changes, and we wait for a time when we think things will be "normal". Instead, we can focus on what God wants to accomplish in us and through us today...
God doesn't want us to live in the future, but He wants us to focus on the present blessings, the present joy, and the present work He wants to do in us.Don't use transition times to slack off in your walk with God. Focus on what God wants to do in you and through you at all times.
(from my devos..)

read this in my devos yesterday:
As followers of Jesus, we also face issues and obstacles that stand between us and the work, the mission, and destiny to which God has called us. But those barriers are not beyond God's influence and power. God is ready to release His miraculous power in our lives when we are ready to release our pride and be totally committed to Him...we'll discover that our obstacles are really not obstacles at all. They are opportunities to see God reveal Himself in our midst as the Lord of all the earth.

When I am overwhelmed
Holding pieces of my heart
When I feel my world
Start to fall apart
To the cross I run
Holding high my chains undone
Now I am finally free
Free to be what I've become
Undone

Undone/Mercy Me

this is it... last full school week of the term..
getting tired.. handed in psych paper today,almost done assignment due tmr,and now working on MT paper due thurs.. might haftu pull my very first allnighter tmr..since i only haf about 3/15 pgs done >.< tell me how to get thru this...

it was a good 'wrap up' as the last prayer meeting of the term (YEAR?!!)tonight..thanks guys :)

not a bad 1st weekend here in loo.. hahah tho i didnt get as much work done as i'd hoped.. which was my own fault but still well spent? :P 4+ hrs of shopping, one whopPING dinner @benny's which i finished, thankyOU, and 'milk and cookies for santa' ice cream with hot chocolate ..MMMM
gotta say tho.. cfc was definitely not the same as scac.. i missed scac..
and my parents are the best* they spoil me rotten i tell ya. i am blessed with awesome parents :) my mom brought & made me so much food..

i jus cANNOT wait until this week is over. no . i mean. i cannot wait until this music therapy paper's finished. it'll b smooth sailing from then. haha hopefully.

this month has passed by so quickly... with all the assignments n papers due..

May the Lord answer you when you are in distress;
may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
May he send you help from the sanctuary
and grant you support from Zion...

-Psalm 20:1,2,6-8