wow, i really should just give up now.

i use this whenever i don't want someone to read off my xanga.. so that's why things are usually more negative here..lol

but these are my thoughts and feelings..

i'm reallly trying to let myself go more, and be more of myself .. i'm trying to be less afraid of being vulnerable w/my feelings and let you in.. because i shut u down without even realizing it most of the time. trying to be more assertive.. and show that i care, because i usually do the opposite of what i want to do to hide my feelings.

but you have this way of giving me hope, and then retracting it.

i'm trying to do all those things, but i also need to guard my heart.


can i rely on you?



So this is where you are, and this is where I am
Somewhere between unsure and a hundred