1)Who tagged you?
my lo beng dai goh nevin

2)In what situation did you meet this person?
LCCF, tho i don't rmb much of him in 1st year.. we were co-cell leaders in my 2nd yr tho ahha.

3)How long have you known this person for?
2 yrs

4)What is so special about this person?
He's old, but reliable. And he looks out for me.

5)In your heart, what do you think about this person?
a rare gentleman keeping the chivalry alive hahahah. very opinionated. wise...in some ways :P reserved. hilarious..but then again, i think most ppl are funny...

6)At this moment, is there anyone you want to meet? Who?
the woman with the incredible memory.. see if it'll rub off onto me cuz i'm so forgetful >.<

7)Favourite memory?
none, i don't want to remind myself of nething that has to do with nevin.


..joking. Really,it's whenever i make his jaw drop to the ground. HAHAHA. cuz it means i'm dishing out the sass.

8)Tag 8 more people:
Nevin,Lau Ma,Kasey,Justin CHiu,go-T,Martin,Sharon Man,Aculeus

for the first time ever i cannot wait to leave toronto and return to waterloo.

thought you had
all the answers
to rest your heart upon.
but something happens
don't see it coming, now
you can't stop yourself.
now you're out there swimming
in the deep.
in the deep.

Life keeps tumbling your heart in circles
till you... let go
till you shed your pride and you climb to heaven
and you throw yourself off.
now you're out there spinning
in the deep.

and now you're out there spinning
and now you're out there swimming
in the deep.

in the silence
all your secrets will
raise their weary heads
well, you can't pin yourself
back together with who
you thought you were

now you're out there swimming
in the deep.

(if you want to be given everything, give everything up.)

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drove home tonight in the rain and fog. quite the experience..windshield wipers on max and vision was still blurred from the rain, trucks splashing water everywhere, and the all encompassing fog. felt like i was driving on/thru clouds. literally. esp when there weren't any lights on the highway and it was just cars in front of me.. it was like going thru an abyss or something... ahah couldn't see anything but the red lights on the back of cars.. driven in worse conditions before.. still kinda scary..but cool at the same time. haha.

studied til 3am last night then got up @9 to study some more.. midterm went alright........ really not sure how i did tho.. ah well.
so i realize that it's been almost a month since LCCF's winter retreat, but better late than never right?? hahaa.. my reflections:

quick recap:
-mad rush to get equipment, passengers..took nearly an hr O_o
-kary drives mad fast
-deep dish pizza + fried rice for snacks
-heater on full blast = very dry skin
-chubby bunny
-awesome speaker- Adrian Kao
-2 hrs of outdoor games: human foosball and a stagnant capture the flag
-group sharing: totally amazing.
-running out of warm fuzzy paper! O_o definitely did not forsee that
-staying up til 4am singing BSB, 90s pop songs, Disney songs as a group w/a human jukebox accompanying on the guitar
-mudpie eating contest… which naturally led to getting pied in the face by others

fun times for suure. It was definitely a new experience, being ‘in charge’ of something like that. It’s definitely harder than it looks. But it was definitely a blessed weekend; God was in our midst. All throughout the weekend we saw how He’d been working looooong before we even started planning for retreat. It was totally crazy. First night, speaker told us that since he arrived, he could feel the strong sense of community. Blew me away. Because community was what we’ve been working towards this whole term @LCCF. Last term, it felt disconnected; ppl weren’t chilling much outside of LCCF like we used to..etc, so that’s why we decided to focus more on the community aspect of fellowship this term. So to hear that coming from the speaker, a total stranger, was really encouraging, just to be affirmed like that.

Sharing was…phenomenal, to say the least. ppl I didn’t expect to share, shared, and not the flaky stuff, but the real, deep, painful stuff. It was genuine. (sidenote: I am SOOOOOOOOOOOo excited for vince to join us next year; he’s such an awesome kid.) lots of inspiring and encouraging things, but some challenging and painful things as well. A challenging statement was why we wait until these ‘sharing’ times @retreats to share with others honestly and openly. We should be doing this all the time, not only @retreats.

Sharing was also part 2 of discovering that God had been working before retreat. I shared about some struggles I’ve been going thru this year; more specifically, my lack of confidence, and getting over my fear (of everything lol). The book of Joshua has been an encouragement to me this term, because I could relate to the whole being a new leader type thing.. esp in chapter 1 where God commands him to be strong and courageous because He’s backing him up the whole way.

So anyways, I talked about what I learned from Joshua, and by the end of sharing, at least 3,4 ppl also mentioned that they had been studying Joshua as well, whether individually, or in a group. It was absolutely mind-boggling! God had united us even before we realized it. It was amazing.

But I think the main thing I learned from this retreat was to stop putting God into a box, because retreat exceeded any/all of my expectations. I expected a good time of bonding, fellowship, etc.. the stuff that usually happens at retreat etc.. but I definitely did not expect all the oTHER stuff God did… We expected no more than 30 ppl to go; 34 ended up going. Being able to call ourselves a ‘community’.. open-heart sharing. So I learned that we often underestimate His power.. but He can do g r e a t things if only we let Him.

the reasons why i miss waterloo: (*gasp!)