i think.. God wanted me to learn my own lesson through this whole thing.. which was why we didn't really get a chance to talk about it ;p... but yah... honestly it's been..... a lot of self control. a lot. which is esp hard for me.. cuz i'm an emotional person, so it's so easy to just let those emotions go wild, and let them take reign over my thoughts and actions.. which they did.

it was not pretty.

i let my feelings/emotions get the best of me and did things that i wouldn't have normally done if i wasn't so overridden with irrational feelings..i was blinded..
but through it all, i've learned a lot about relationships and friendships... and how God wants me to go about each.. when you can equate romance with wisdom, that's when you know you're ready for courtship (goal=eventually get married to that person)..

i still have much to learn.... but
my God is so awesome.