havent updated in so long... almost a WEEK!hahah
well.. been home since last wed.. and been cleaning up my whole room since then..
ended off my exams with a bang ;) my jury went pretty well... most of u guys kno how i was scared/worried/unsure about it.. i was really.. not confident.. cuz i played REALLY badly @ our saturday recital thing... and i didn't really have much time to practice either,cuz i had 2 exams the day b4 my jury.... it all looked so brutal, but when the day came, it wasn't too bad.. :P hehe.. so @night, i played for a few friends... and i kept on screwing up ahahah.. like reaLLY. this is the night before my jury. and i cant even play thru my songs? blah.. but one of my friends said she knew that i could do it; i jus need to have some confidence in myself.... thanks so much 4 that..i really needed to hear it.. :) so i practiced til like 1:30ish am n slept relatively early.. haha. got up at like 9 something, and i intended on warming up/practicing a bit more b4 my jury @11:20.. but.. haha ended up taking all my pics down from my walls since i was moving later in the afternoon.. so i only warmed up for like 15 mins or so haha.. i was early for my jury, so i had to wait.. n listen to the person b4 me play for a good 5 mins.. n let me tell u. it was nerve-wrecking!... so i prayed n prayed .. repeating isaiah 41:13 to myself... and i became less scared.. less nervous. walked into the room.. saw that it was anya, leslie de'ath n my teacher.. which calmed me down some more, since leslie's my masterclass teacher, n anya looks really kind. HAHA ;p. neway. i don't really rmb what went on in my mind for the next 20 mins or so while i played..but i can honestly say that it was absolutely becuz of God's grace that i was able to get thru it.. usually, when i play in class or whatever, and i mess up, i get soooo nervous that i cant rmb how to go on.. yahh its pretty bad. but when i messed up during my jury, i wasn't even the slightest bit scared, and i jus played from wherever i rmb. it was... wow. totally amazing. and also.. leslie cut me off after half of the 1st mvt of the beethoven sonata, and i didnt even haftu play the other 2 mvts at ALL!!!! i was so shocked. haha.. but SO happy i didn't haftu. so yah... it was definitely God's work... and that was the end of my 1st yr in uni.
i had like no time to reflect on the past yr becuz i had to pack up/move out right after my jury was done.. :( i would've stayed for at least another day if i could (n pARTAYY ahaha), but i had an eye appt the next morning.. so poo ;p. but yah. it doesn't feel like its summer yet..... becuz i still feel like i'm in school or something. and this is an extra exTRA long weekend lol ;p.. not used to the whole.. 4 months of summer yet. been lookin for jobs... still am..... and cleaning everything up in my room...... like EVERYTHING.. came upon lots of ... letters/cards.. stuff like that... from childhood days..and realized how much i've grown up/matured. (HA HA HA)..and .. there's a part of me that still longs for days gone before...SC '98 for example ;p.. mayb not so much the events.. but the bonds between friends..many of which have faded...

i've lived for almost 2 decades now.. that's baffling...

what will this summer bring...?hopefully a decent job somewhere.. vacation/wedding in hawaii.. and ayp reunion!?!?!?!!!miss u all so much.....

long enuf post.....!GO LEAFS GO!!!;D