so blessed*

i'm so blessed to have been able to grow so much jus within the past 2 months or so.. God has definitely been stretching me, my weaknesses made perfect in His strength. it's unbelievable. i mean,who would've thought i'd be serving as a co-cellgrp leader this yr?! i thought i was gonna do worship..but He obviously had bigger plans and totally exceeded all expectations..which actually happens quite a lot ... :P
He has jus really been pushing me to grow this yr..there's ccf stuff..house..anxieties bout gettin into music therapy..
but my sis put it best..
sometimes i think that i ask for too much. i ask God for what He can do for me..and i ask that He be there to comfort me..and its good..that we are able to turn to Him..
but i guess..sumtimes..the question should be: what can i do for God? yes, im tired and stressed..and i have a lot on my mind..but im sure a lot of ppl have their burdens too..so what can i do? how can i be there for them? am i willing to sacrifice my time, my energy..for others? Jesus gave much more than that..

Lord i want to love You and serve You..show me how to love Your people,and give me the words to say..

what can i say .. except that He is holy & awesome?

i could spend forever..staring in awe of Your creation..fall to my knees in wonder..

saw the lunar eclipse tonight.. pretty awesome stuff..... and the stars. u can see stars here in loo... ahh.
its unexplainable. that feeling u get when ur looking up at the star-filled sky..infinite..

somewhat crazy week.. gettin more used to it here..praise God.




missing: passion.

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.

psalm 23:1-2

a convicting sermon yesterday...on the parable of the talents
God has given us wings to fly, yet we're still 'waddling'.
many good points made.. i need to really try n work harder... put my best effort in everything,esp school. even tho i kno its where He wants me to be, i still gotta give it my best shot.

psych midterm tmr,theory midterm wed,list of resources for mt paper due thurs..for some reason, i dun feel stressed. :)

need to focus.concentrate.do my best.for Him.

once again i am humbled and in wonder of His majesty..

more than enough...

Rosalind and her husband came n talked to us tonight.. they shared bout their individual lives...n focussed on uni life..it was wow. both of them r such great ppl... but yah.. when rosalind was sharing.. she said a lotta stuff.....that jus went straight to my heart. i didn't even realize i was feelin that way until tonight....

i can't say the rest.. too personal..but.. God knows. He knows ur heart..

not completely done at 4:07 am.
tired?? dunno what that means nemore.

>.<

essential: takin time out to talk to friends.

thanks. who knew that an elementary school friend could still encourage me even tho we haven't seen each other in 7 yrs??

but yah.. reminded that.. i shouldnt even be worryin bout the stuff i'm worryin bout now, cuz its not important in the end.. and God takes care of the sparrows and makes sure that even the flowers of the field are clothed more beautifully than the finest things the world has to offer,so how much more He will provide for His beloved child?

this constant pull n tug...

what i want is so far removed from what is good for me.
need to learn how to make it on my own..need to let go..leave it all behind ..and concentrate on the things at hand..

God witholds what we desire in order to give us what we need. [A Love Worth Giving-Max Lucado]

need motivation..

shouldnt even be considering it.. but no class on fri.. long weekend @home??

need to put away these longings n live by God alone--He is my only constant.

help me,Lord, to surrender my desires to You every day.

black & white(x2)..o baby.

been learning a lot in this past week..
time to ABORB please?? :P

thx PIC for picking me up hahaha.. should totally do the gilmore girls thing next time ;)

thanks.
n thanks for gettin me hooked onto the apprentice!:P

eww.. i realized that most of the time,initially,i run away from problems instead of facing them head on.

HOME TMR! :D greyhounding it this week tho.. but get to spend some *overdue quality time with my bestest :) hehe

and of course... the main reason why im goin bak this weekend........ :D SOOOOOO EXCITED!!! :D :D :D

time to sleep... :)

at peace..

i duno. went to sleep earlier last night n jus started off with a good morning..i feel like burdens haf been lifted ..

talked to a friend whom i haven't talked to in a while last night..many realizations.. i think.. a big part of my growing closer to God... is becuz of what i've been struggling with.. and its been pushin me to pray,read everyday..true longing for Him,His presence... and really trying to understand..how to rely on Him for everything--motivation,joy/happiness,strength-- n not rely on nethin else..He is my only constant..my home.. my place of rest..
thanks bud keep the 'chain' going? haha;) and thank youss.

or mayb its cuz its wednesday, and i'll b goin home in 2 days. ahhah.

YAHHHHH cell grp partner!!white 1.7s!!!we rock. im ecstatic.

last week it was school
this week it's homesickness.(yes. even tho it was a long weekend, and im goin home this fri also.)
when is it ever going to end?
great,uplifting weekends that somehow give way to discouraging/worn out weekdays (the first 2 days at least.)... i duno is something wronG with me??.. can't seem to bring that re-energized/refreshed feeling bak to loo or something.. i dunno what to do.. and it's worse than last yr..

trying to hold on..

i need sleep.

i really really miss home.

oh wOw.
what a weekend.
Friday...pleasantly surprised..
Saturday..since our civic's dying, we went to look at cars.. were on our way to toyota but made a stop b4 it..spent 5 hrs @the dealership..and time was not wasted ;)
Sunday..really good sermon.. it was exactly what i needed. it was about how God's placed u where you're at right now, for a reason/purpose.. what really drove it home was .. this is ur life, theres no dress rehearsal-- this is it. u can't look bak in 10 yrs and b like, oh i wish i'd tried harder or somethin cuz it's too late for that n if u dun take up those opportunities, they'll pass u by n that'll b it. it reinforced somethin that a friend said to me earlier this week... how each day is another day to be alive, and living for His purpose.. cuz for the past few weeks i've jus been feeling like tmr's another long day to get thru... etc..
had lunch@swiss chalet with our grade..'thanksgiving-ish'.. ;p good times.. thanks.
@night, met up wit vicki and jus talked for over 2 hrs straight.. jus catching up n stuff... exactly what i needed..one of those talks about evERything...God really blessed our convo last night... and jus felt like we were in a completely diff world, away from reality n whatever school assignments/tests comin up were all forgotten/unimportant... it was like an escape for 2 hrs... :P i duno i jus really needed that... jus the comfort i guess, in knowing that someone understands what ur feeling n stuff... so blessed*
this weekend was definitely refreshing..

hopefully internet will contINUE working at my house... but mUCHO thanks to jlau for keepin me sane with daily internet fixes for the past week!!haha

alright finally time to start my assignment thats due tmr! :D

awesome day........

i am SOO coming bak next weekend.

she's reminded me ...miss u sis.

Everyone longs to give himself or herself completely to someone- to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God, to a Christian says, "No, not until you are content with living loved by me alone. I love you, my child, and until you discover that only in me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with me- exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires and longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing- one that you can`t imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you- just keep watching me, expecting the greatest thing- keep experiencing that satisfaction Knowing that I am. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you, you must wait. Don`t be anxious. Don`t worry. Don`t look around at the things others have gotten or I`ve given them. Don`t look at the things you think you want. You keep looking off and away up to me, or you`ll miss what I want to show you. And; then, When you`re ready, I`ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you would ever dream. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, I am working even this minute to have both of you ready at the same time. Until you are both satisfied exclusively with me and life I have prepared for you, you won`t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me and this is perfect love. And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me, and to enjoy materially union of beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with myself ;know that I love you utterly. I am God Almighty Believe and be satisfied.

can u say finallY???
the end of the week?!
it has been too long..
but more than a few highlights...

thank You..

now for some time of sleep b4 the longgg day ahead..

good night of sharing...it was a smaller grp last night.. but it felt nice.. and beginning to feel like home..

a song came into my head last night... one from campus challenge..
Give You Everything/Benny Mao

I want to give You everything
Give up my trophies from this world
I'll store up treasures in You Lord
My heavenly reward

I want to give You all my best
Give up my firstborn if You asked
I'll die to my own selfish dreams
So You will reign in me

why must i be so stupid and you so stubborn?