one of my favourite songs on the cd..

The splendor of the King
Clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice, all the earth rejoice
He wraps himself in light
And darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice, and trembles at His voice

How great is our God
Sing with me
How great is our God
All will see
How great, how great
Is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the End,Beginning and the End
The Godhead, Three in One
Father, Spirit,Son
The Lion and the Lamb, the Lion and the Lamb

how great is our God/Chris Tomlin

I want to live like there's no tomorrow
I want to dance like no one's around
I want to sing like nobody's listening
Before I lay my body down
I want to give like I have plenty
I want to love like I'm not afraid
I want to be the way I was made

Made in Your likeness, made with Your hands
Made to discover who You are and who I am
All I've forgotten help me to find
All that You've promised let it be in my life.

the way i was made/Chris Tomlin

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray ...

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

had a late night talk wit my friend over the weekend .. it stirred up something in me ...said i wasnt really taking the initiative in certain things.. n if it's where GOd's leading me, then why not??.... i don't know..i dun even know if its what God wants for me.. my heart is having some trouble ... but lock it up and take the key away.. i can't do it myself. i need to focus on God/ccf/school this yr..esp this yr. ..
O God,please help me to listen.

helpin to lead my first Bible study eVEr tonight..*breathe.

For you created my inmost being...
-psalm 139:13

Unaware of my fears
Unaware of my shame
Nothing else matters here
But glorifying Your name
Unaware of everything
Knowing You're aware of me

Tell me how I got here
Couldn't make it on my own
Just tell me I can stay
Cause it feels so much like home

And I lose all track of time
When I look into Your eyes
Your love is all I know
I'm aware I'm in a place I couldn't be
If You weren't there to call my name and rescue me

Unaware/mercy me

"God may seem distant and far but there is no one closer who could hear. Have faith that in all things there`s a cause and a reason for even if this life is just winter the next is an eternal spring season."

Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.
-2 Corinthians 3:17

i haftu admit.. at the beginning of the night... i was wondering why i went..and i actually wanted to leave cuz it jus wasn't .. comfortable..
but then we split up into small grps to pray for bonnie..and everyone in my grp shared.. i honestly didn't know what i was feeling..so didn't really feel like sayin nething..cuz jus so tired n worn out.. but it actually wasnt too bad.. good time of sharing and praying.. i feel the same.
after that, joined the rest of colluni and didomi to pray altogether at 10pm (the 'universal' time of prayer for bonnie).. everyone,like a grp of 60+,huddled together n prayed out loud.. n bernard closed..
literally right after we finished praying.. a guy came in n said he jus called rev. lam and he told him that bonnie had jus started responding to the doctor's commands (ie moving her toes..). o my. i jus started crying .. everyone was crying..it was jus so amazing. literally a miracle. ALL FOR HIS GLORY. beyond all comprehension.. it was awesome. He heard our cries..and gave me exactly what i needed at the same time.. holy and awesome is He.

finally..... assignment pretty much done.. and home tmr..
time for a breather.
this week has been another long one.. tiring.stressed.worn out.
it can only get better from here right??

i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes till i touch the sky
make a wish, take a chance, make a change and breakaway
out of the darkness and into the sun
i wont forget all the ones that i love
take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway

who sings this song?!!

get me outta here..

it's in Your hands.
for the Lord our God is righteous and holy.
Savior and Creator of the universe.

to be able to worship in the midst of pain.. thats like the truest form of worship ... n strength. today i witnessed that.... it was awesome.

God,hold her in Your arms and let Your will be done.

end of the week is always better for some reason... ;p heheh
didn't do ne work today...
thx YOU for the training tonight.needed that. im not as scared bout it nemore... hehehe :) kinda excited actually ! :P hehe but yahh. very important--maintaining spiritual health.

need to stop being lazy n do my work.

another long week....
thought it was wednesday when it was only tuesday..
haftu stop rushing and jus be still.

hopefully internet will b working tonight. hAI!

gettin outta here tmrrrr

so many decisions to make/options to choose from..

oh how i need You Lord
You are my only hope
You're my only prayer..

long day...
haven't even looked at skills/theory hw yet n i dunno how to find the time to do it..cuz i got a lesson 2-3 and then choir 4-5?5:30?.. and then bbq @jeffs @6....

last night was jus... not worth it. felt like crap at the end n had to get up for 8:30 class this morning .. my first therapy course. overwhelmed would be the word. its alll writing. no tests or exams.. but loTS to write about. and i kno it will be mentally n emotionally draining.. we haftu haf this reflective 'diary' thing.... and gosh i dun even kno where to begin with all the work i already have. and theres gona b a lot more reading this yr too.
psych was kinda boring.. blahblahblah.

the yr has barely even started yet and i already feel like im falling behind.

please help me to get thru this year ...

A strong woman works out everyday to keep her body in good shape...but a woman of strength kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape.
A strong woman isn't afraid of anything... but a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear.
A strong woman won't let anyone get the best of her... but a woman of strength gives the best of her for everyone.
A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future. A woman of strength realizes life's mistakes can also be God's blessings and capitalizes on them.
A strong woman walks sure footed-ly... but a woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls.
A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face... but a woman of strength wears grace.
A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey... but a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong.

feels good to be home... :)

came home n slept..
last night was jus a good time of catchin up with my friend.. haven't really talked since... last yr! so it was good... n also good to kno i can still count on him for help.. hehe;p

o the morning afters are never great...

niagara pix r up on imagestation: daydreamsun3!!

got internet n cable hooked up today.. WOOHOO
cept it doesnt WORK on my comp!?!!!! gRRr..so using ian's comp while they all watch canadian idol haha.

humm.. goin home tmr!!
woOOHoooooooo.

its been a long week... 'week'. of less than 5 days here in loo.

so many emotions.. tiredness/weariness..frustration..confusion..loneliness..unbelonging? ... comfort... i woke up a few times in my bed thinkin i was at home . o dear.

2nd day here in loo.. and feeling like i should've moved here later..
deprived of the internet since friday..and wont haf it til thurs at least..... so right now im in a comp lab at school wit alex..

sigh. where to begin... ?i moved in on sunday.. finished setting up everything by 8pm.. i was too tired to clean up n unpack etc so i went home for the night haha and came bak the next morning at like 9..
yesterday...basically spent the day at my house w/housemates.... doing nothing.. watched parts of american beauty,big daddy,n ever after. can u say exciting??aw man. so sick. had dinner at like 9:30pm at some taiwanese place...
last night was jus weirded out.... jus felt blah.. and really missed home.
waterloo is like another world away from home. its a totally diff place and i'm not reminded of .. stuff bak home as much ... like everythin jus seems distant and not as .. defined in my mind as much.. i really miss home tho.

saturday was the last road trip of the summer... niagara falls. it was a good day of chilling wit dave gordon martin n enoch.. 3 arcades.every ride has guns.air con places.shade breaks.two choices:pants or bushes.kelso/lead singer of hoobstank.god of cookery. it was jus a chill day.. cuz we werent rushing to get back or nething... it was good. :)

sunday was the end of summer... it was a good end to an awesome summer.. couldn't have asked for more.. i was really...mixed up emotionally.. i dun rmb exactly what i was thinkin about when i was walking but.. something in me jus broke. even more so after karen gave me stitch w/a card... it was exactly waht i needed..
service was really good..havent experienced one like that in a while... i realized that i shouldnt be so 'unwilling' to go back to loo becuz of everything that'll b happening this yr..
and what am i supposed to feel...?i really dont know. part of me wants to,part of me doesnt(the realistically pessimistic side of me)..
..and maybe that was enough and no words were needed..

getting trampled on. what the heck.

isaiah 46:4

"All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last"
-nelly furtado try

mourning the end of summer :(

"Nobody on the road
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone..

A little voice inside my head said,
'Don't look back. You can never look back.'
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know?
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go"

4 months have gone by too fast.....and in a week or so.. another school yr begins. its gona b challenging for sure

God, pls let him see You clearly.