It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.
-Psalm 18:32

Waiting,suffocating,no direction
I took a dive and
On the way down
I saw You
And You saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way You loved me
On the way down I almost fell right through
But I held on to You...

You're all I wanted, You're all I needed

On The Way Down/Ryan Cabrera

Searching After You/Evan Earwicker
http://www.dancewithme.org/index2.htm

I have tasted many streams, yet no water quite as sweet
I have felt you calling me, even as deep calls out to deep
I have looked on things unseen,
For the heart of my God, my soul I will bring

I wanna come with you and be led by quiet waters
won't you come, won't you come
You're singing over me
I wanna run with you and drink from the living waters
I will come, I will come
I'm searching after you, you're singing over me

I have heard you speak my name, so in the river I will wait
When can I come before my God
Can I meet with you and know your love

I'll forever bring you pleasure, you will be my great reward
I'll forever bring you pleasure,
there's nothing else that I want more

so it's official.
TRACY IS HERE IN LOO THIS WEEKEND.
anD the next. :O
u dont wanna miss out on this rare opportunity!:p heheh

hehehehe
listenin to christmas songs makes me feel so much happier :D that plus the snow outside while drinkin hot chocolate.. can't get ne better than this!:) eyahh im a loser -- but a happy one ! ;p

on the menu for next week.. no sleep?? woohOO!
n maybe throw in a theory assignment in there somewhere too.

Tues: Psych paper
Wed: Theory macgamut
Thurs: MT paper(ANOTHER 15pg,30% paper) & 6 concert reviews
Fri: macgamut

an important reminder found in my devos today..
Healthy family life develops and grows through relationships. These ties are strengthened by times of informal fellowship where news is exchanged on the happenings of the day, where people are able to freely talk about their thoughts and feelings, where decisions of common interests and concern are made, and where one can have some fun. Here we can feel like an important member of the fmaily, loved and cared for by other members...
In small groups, we help one another know Christ better and fulfill his purpose for our lives. We can relax, being casual and completely at ease. Even with differences and disagreements, the atmosphere of openness and acceptance in a small group draw people closer to one another--as would happen in any family.
-Robert Munger

did pretty much what i wanted to do this weeeknd...
the incredibles with my sis on fri.... GO SEE IT..vaughan mills yesterday.. but only for an hr or so..was in a rush...but definitely overrated. i didnt see the shooting range?!! :P mm..and SO disappointed in the bcbg outlet :( that was the main reason i wanted to go n it was disappointing.almost all the clothes there were so plaiN/boring..only had onE thing i liked in the whole store n it was mad expensive.also saw my sister's prom dress there (she got it in the states), n the price was DOUBLED what we paid. unbelievable. so yeh. that was jus a major disappointment:( other stores..... jus bigger versions of the usual stores in malls.and SO CROWDED!!!!!!!that was really annoying. could barely walk newhere w/o gettin into someone's way.. - . - but i mean..finally got to see what all the fuss was about.. n bumped into fran n shan! haha :P fran n her sis r SO alike its not even funny!..

i realize how much i've been blessed..not only with great friends.. but with God himself.(i read this somewhere ..but can't seem to find it -.-) His greatest gift to us is Himself. all of Him..
this past week i've been learning..about how God 'fits' into my schoolwork.. cuz for most of my life, i've separated schoolwork from God..not completely but for the most part.. This week i've been workin on my music therapy paper for 3 days straight.. it was long,tiring.. but i realized that i shouldnt be jus 'doing' it..hoping to get a good mark--the only reason why im doing it.. rather, i should look at it like i'm doing it for God. i CAN'T find the verse that says this..(?!!!?!)but its the one that goes somethin like... in everything you do,do it not for man,but for God..and i think "work" was in there somewhere too but GRR can't seem to find where i got that from.... -.- sigh. NEWAY.so yah.tryin to do everything as if i'm doing it for God (which in reality--whether i realize it or not--i am)..changes the way i go about it.. ie. i'd definitely try harder to do my best.. and i'd be more motivated to do it, cuz it's also like a way to serve Him..
but yah. i've been blessed so much this week.. my paper was due on thurs..started writing on mon..my therapy class got cancelled tues morning..n i didnt go to psych, which meant my 1st class was @2pm.. so i had the whole morning to work on my paper.. and wed night..there was ccf, and bible study prep right after..HA HA.those things usually last until at lEAST 12am.. and i couldn't miss it since i already missed the last one n nevin had to take over..(n i kno he would've taken over this bible study too if i really needed to..but this one's the last one of the term so yahh) i was actually plannin on leavin halfway thru it..@12am..but by the grace of God.. we finished @11:50pm.. can u say woW?? we also had a lil surprise thing for hannah's bday b4 we started the bible study..but yah. thats God in the 'little things'..
and a reminder from from my friend... school's been secondary to doing God's work..she's been puttin God n His ppl first--in her cell grp.. in times spent with individuals...but God somehow gives her bak all that time she's spent, putting His purposes first in her life. School has been secondary..yet she's been doing extremeLY well.. what can i say?living testimony..

wow. thought i'd feel more relieved than this.. but i kno theres still a lOT of work ahead of me.. ahaha..
but i guess.. jus really thankful for the support.. encouragement.. PUSHING.. haha during the past few days when i was slaving over my music therapy paper...thanks guys!!:)
little things..
blessed with awesome friends*

Every behaviour, every passion begins with a thought, a seed planted in our minds. To stay passionately in pursuit of God requires that we feed our minds with the right stuff.To stay enamored with Christ, we must bathe our minds with a vision of eternity and with the dazzling beauty fo Christ

We, the recipients of God's grace, are like commoners who have been touched by the king. We aren't good enough to be chosen, but we have been given a chance. We are living a life we don't deserve and didn't earn--all on the basis of God's amazing grace.

eeeyahh. now im stressing.
jus not in the work mode tonight!>.<
crappp..

its been a WEEK since i last blogged.. wow haha..
school's been keeping me busy..
spent most of this weekend with my mom.. had lunch with her fri when i came bak from loo.. and then yesterday,went dt to watch 2 concerts n shoppin @eaton center in between.. quite a packed day :P but sO good. as weird as it may sound.. i felt like i bought a lotta stuff-- but i didn't buy nething at all.i jus got to go to all the stores i've been wanting to go to ;p..aritzia,h&m,banana..sephora.. wow that place is nUTs.
one of the concerts we went to was a jazz one..w/canadian jazz vocalist,heather bambrick. she was soooo awesome, she sounded jus like a recording but LIVE!it was amazing. and she did this whistling thing that sounded jus like those birds u hear in disney movies... wOW. sO solid. i had to buy her cd.. starting my own jazz collection? haha i lovE listenin to jazz..it also reminds me of Christmastime..:) GOOD CALL kary!;)
one of the songs i really liked...
Teach Me Tonight

Teach me tonight
Did you see that I've got a lot to learn?
Well don't think I'm trying not to learn,
Since this is the perfect spot to learn -
Oooh, teach me tonight!

Let's start with the ABC of it,
Roll right down to the XYZ of it
Help me solve the mystery of it,
Teach me tonight!

The sky's a blackboard high above you,
If a shooting star goes by,
I'll use that star, to write I love you,
A thousand times across the sky.

One thing isn't very clear my love,
Should the teacher stand so near my love?
Graduation's almost here my love,
Come on and teach me tonight.

I'll use that star to write I love you,
A thousand times across the sky,
One thing isn't very clear my love
Should the teacher stand so near my love,
Graduation's almost here my love,
Teach me......please teach me tonight!

What is a friend? A single soul in two bodies."
-Aristotle

When I Go Down/Relient K

I'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much to think of this
so from my thoughts I will exclude
this very thing that
I hate more than everything is
the way I'm powerless
to dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
so many things that could've been much more
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

when I go down
I go down hard
and I take everything I've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
into a place where
peace can search me out and find
that I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
the hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
so many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
the secret to find an end to this
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
reprimands me
then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
yet You love me
and that consumes me
and I'll stand up again
and do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
you touch my heavy heart, and when You do You make it light
as I exhale I hear Your voice
and I answer You, though I hardly make a noise
and from my lips the words I choose to say
seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
because I love You
oh God, I love You
and life is now worth living
if only because of You
and when they say I'm dead and gone
it won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes up to You
I won't look very far
cause You'll be there
with open arms
to lift me up again
to lift me up again

wow havent blogged in so long it seems!
good night of chilling wit friends :) lol 'cell grp meeting' turned into that becuz of bad weather,midterms..etc..thanks all.

jlau here'S the verse i couldn't rmb....... -.- heh
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7

so weird..
been thinkin bout... passion lately...for doing His work...for the things of His heart...
and today.. what do i hear?? its one of the main points in the sermon.
every single sunday.. its been like that. really amazing.
haha.. or it might b becuz i listen more intently now....?;p

"healthy smells"..school..and another 5 days til home.

God pls help me to be thankful for each and every day that You give me..