feeling bleh

i tend to eat a lot when i'm feeling like crap..so i'm feeling pretty full right now.

i think it's so sad.. thinking that my worth is dependent on others liking me or not. it is NOT TRUE. and yet i still forget that my worth was determined long before i was even born when He gave His life for me. i am worth Jesus' life. how completely and utterly undeserving am i? But it is true. i am worth that much, and nobody, no matter how much they love me or not, can ever change that.

He is more than enough for me... and yet i keep on searching elsewhere. ashamed and broken...i'm realizing again that i am nothing without You.

Lord, help me to focus my attention on the things that matter most to You.. i want to continually seek the desires of Your heart instead of my own petty desires. there are bigger things happening outside of my own life, and i want desperately to be a part of what You're doing in our lives.