omg.
first day of 'training'..
i am soo wiped out.
5 hrs of standing.
4 more tmr! YAY

i don't know if complaining is.. 'justified' here.. but my dad summed it all up when he said "Work like hell, paid like shit". ah man. he's funny. but yah! honestly. the uniform u haftu wear,costs $50 somethin, n comes out of ur 1st 3 paychecks or whatever it is. and then u gotta spend another whatever for 'slip-resistant' shoes which they expect u'll have after ur 1st paycheck.
today was 11-4pm.. lunchtime rush. omg. like i can't even begin to explain how overwhelmed i was. how fast my heart was beating. all that adrenaline running thru me. it was non-stop, go go go all the way til 3. i cannot explain it. except that now i know + have sO much respect for the ppl that do this kinda thing. the fast food, the restaurants.. honestly, it looks/seems easy enuf, but when ur pressed for time and there are like a billion customers left to serve... it is totally a whole other story. i don't know how u guys do it. i had a massive headache by the end of my shift n i didn't even notice but i'd been holding my breath the whole time i was working. it was blah. i felt SO blah. i didn't get a break til like 3:30 n i didn't even feel like eating, after making a ton of sandwiches. the rush died down, and my shift finally ended at 4, but inside, i still felt like i was in a rush;like my body was ready to spring into action again; anxious; in its alarm phase. and it didn't end until i finally got home n vegged in front of the tv. honestly it's like one of the worst feelings in the world.. when u KNO ur not in a rush at all; yet ur body's all set to run off at anytime. it is soo tiring. i don't know.. this is only the first day. i still feel so lost, like i still don't kno what to put on this sandwich n what goes on the other..everything jus kept on running thru my head the whole time after i finished my shift.
i found out today, i got some kinda workshop next sat.. and i was scheduled to work next sat + sun..... totally my fault cuz i thought they did them the week of....... which was stupid of course... i was so scared about that..... that they wouldn't b able to change it.... but praise God.. the guy helpin me out earlier today took my shifts for me.. ohh if he only knEW how important this was.. but definitely...... it was God that saved me from this.. no one else.. He who moves in and thru ppl..
oh how i long for Your peace to dwell in me.. to find that place of rest in You again..
tmr's another day..