its late n im gettin tired.... hah..
but jus a lotta stuff goin thru my mind.. so i ended up goin to the interview today.. and BOY was it shADY. the whole time i was there.. i jus didn't feel at ease. it was jus something bout it.. made me feel so uncomfortable. it didn't help that the manager looked like one of those thieves with a gap between his front teeth. scary i tell ya. even if i get the job i'm not workin there. honestly i'd take wendy's over that in a split second. it was jus shady!!
so neway.... jus lots goin thru my mind.. i still feel so juvenile in some areas in my life. ... materialism for instance. i like goin shopping.. so many colours and pretty things that catch my eye. i love nething and everything colourful. bright things make me smile :) .. i uno..its jus me but its easy to jus.. shift my focus on things.. that belong to this world . i nuo. theres a diff between admiring beauty and idolizing it... isnt admiring like.. u see how beautiful something is.. but recognize that it's by a Creator..? n well.idolizing is idolizing.. hahah ;p yah im jus rambling.. but this is jus for my own ..
another thing is.. i've decided to fast from something for a year.. it's something i think i really need to do.. i know it won't be easy .. but that's part of the point isnt it?.. it can't/shouldn't be something easy for me to do.. but yah..... i duno what i'm saying.
been thinkin bout leadership too.. i've always always been one to say i can't do it.. but now i'm starting to wonder/question that..
i know i need to open my Bible more.. besides from devos, and pray a whole lot more...
i need those "5 minutes" every day.. doing is the hardest thing. i tried keeping a routine starting this past week.. wake up.. do devos (i find that it's a lot more .. 'useful' to do it in the beginning of the day, rather than the end since u can actually apply what u learned to the rest of ur day.. but thats jus me) .. work out .. haha. then lunch..practice piano..which i havent really done since wednesday......o dear.

getting tired...i really like those japanese cherry blossom trees. esp when the blossoms fall down...