why is it that the best stuff comes to mind when i'm tryinG to fall asleep??????aghhhh. gotta stop doing this. all this thinking b4 bed.. so this is why im up at this hr .....

saw elsie for the last time (b4 she leaves) today ..gave her a card.. and i was thinkin.. cards r small,inexpensive things, yet they can make the joy last longer than material things becuz cards have meaning in them.. n then i was thinkin... why is it that most of the.. encouragement/compliments/etc come at the 'end'?? when a person has to leave? its like now u realize how much they mean to u--jUS when they gotta go?! i think thats sad..i mean,i do that too..but i think we should encourage n thank the friends we haf right now,esp the ones u kno will always b there for u,n no time or distance can come between the friendship,becuz u never kno when they might b gone.

i was also thinking..mm mayb not so much think,but rather it kinda popped into my head...... that God made me to feel.feel as in feeling deeply..emotionally. and i realized that.. for much of this past yr or whatever.. i havent been doing that. i've been..keeping my distance from feeling too much/deeply beucz..i dont wanna b hurt. i uno why.. i jus put up this 'defense mechanism'...i mean, of course i wanna feel ,but.. at the same time i dun wanna wind up being some drama queen that ends up crying over small things, blown up. hai. which is why i envy u KW cuz u jus dive right in. hahahh.

o yah. somethin else jus came to mind. i really like to do things for ppl when they least expect it. cuz surprises r the beST :D

i was also thinkin.. why cant best friends b something more? (shoot dont b dirty!;p i mean guy/girl best friends) o haha sorry. reason why i thought bout that was cuz i jus watched sweet home alabama (reese witherspoon) for like the millionth time..but havent seen it in a while..s o yah. that movie is so sweet.fave parts r the beginning n the end,in the rain..

im gettin tired. haftu get up early tmr too ,b4 9 :(